Something I’ve Written For My Grandma’s Service

First off, I want to begin by saying, I know Religion is a touchy thing for most people… And most don’t talk too much about it in group settings… At least in my experience. Is a Blog a ‘Group Setting’? Well, kinda, and kinda not, Lol That said, I have absolutely no idea if there is a God, but I know that it was part of who my Grandma is, and so I have included the subject loosely in this Document.

Nuff said, to the Piece;

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“You Are Our Sky”

by James Mahoney

Grandma… And I know you can hear me. Because if there wasn’t a Heaven before, there surely is one now, made, and waiting, just for you.

I might recommend you let the big guy win a hand or two once in a while, at that card table in the sky.

We miss you… You know we do. There is no denying the Love, Admiration and Joy we feel for you.

You are Our Sky.

You always have been… And inside I always knew, that there is, and will only be, one person in this world that is you.

Your Laugh…

The most sincere thing that one will ever hear, and/or know.

You got it Grandma. You got this whole Life, and Mortality thing.

The Peace that would wash over me when you spoke of God, or any other Particular of this existence of ours.

You got it. You understood, and all I could do is sit back, my heart open, and hope for high amounts of osmosis to let this peace in.

Though that is much more technical sounding that it really was.

I just knew, that every moment spent with you, was a moment with the Greatest Woman, and Purest Human that I would ever know.

You and Margie’s Reign has laid forth the background of my world growing up.

To me, the two of you weren’t just two women battling for who could get their voices pitch to go higher. Though to this day, I could not tell you who would win such a contest.

No… As I recently told my mom, you and Margie were more of an Era, than just two sisters raising, and/or being with one another’s families.

The Rice’s must Love you… And how can they not. I suspect you are a Piece of every one of their Skies as well.

Truth be known, putting what you are into words, to anyone of us, is practically an impossible things to do.

There is Great Peace in the knowing that you spent 92 years on this planet with us.

There is Great Peace in knowing that you did not seem to suffer at the end of your life.

There are an insurmountable amount of memories to keep us company when we miss you from time to time… And we shall miss you from time to time.

Some much more than that.

I will end with this.

Jack was a Lucky man…

He knew what he was doing when he unabashedly pursued you until you finally gave in.

And Loved him until the end of time.

I know you still do.

And Thank you for Bringing Patrick into this world, one of the Most Amazing, Beautiful Life Filled Entities, and People I have ever known.

He is My Godfather, and the First Hero in my life. And ever will be.

The Closeness of you and Sonny… The Racetrack… Your Breakfasts together which I only recently found out about. I’m not sure a Mother and Son could be closer than you two.

He will miss you terrible I suspect. He Truly Deserved your Love, he is a Great man. And an Amazing Family Man, which means so much to this Family I believe.

And Most of all, thank you for My Mother… My Best friend for life.

The Most Beautiful Woman, and Person I’ve ever known…

Right next to you.

God Bless Grandma, We Love you

James-

Writing, Editing, Recovering

Writing, Editing, Recovering

So it’s been kind of a difficult week

But I shall return to my Writing, and Editing, and try to get back into a Rhythm.

I Miss Writing, so that’s good… And I’m almost complete with my 5th Draft of “Chess With Agatha”

After that, as I’ve mentioned before, I hope to get my sister to look over it with me, and make my final changes before Self Publishing it… If she’s just not available, I’ll most likely just do it myself.

I Hope you are all Well, the Weekend is coming (At least for those of you who do the Mon-Fri thing), so that’s good.

I Hope you all have a Lovely Weekend

DarkJade-

So I Lost My Grandma Yesterday

There really aren’t any words to describe what I’m feeling right now…

One of the Most Amazing Human Beings I have ever known has moved on, leaving this world behind

I Love My Grandma

And though I haven’t seen her in some time, who she is, and who she was will always be with me.

The Strongest Memories are of her taking me, my brother and my cousin Nicole to her Condo on the Beach, many, many years ago.

She used to make us Kraft Macaroni and Cheese… I remember at night, she used to lay on the floor in front of the television set, watching the news… While we were off playing in the other room. My Grandma Loved to watch the News… At least when I was growing up.

Then she’d make us popcorn… Not to mention all the times she took all of us to Disneyland.

The last hand full of years have been tougher for her… For one, she’s suffered from dementia for at least a couple years. And before that, her youngest son, my Uncle Pat passed away… Which was always difficult for her to swallow. And before that, her sister, whose house she had spent so much time at over the previous years, had moved away…

Time had finally caught up with Grandma… Something some part of most us I believe, wondered if it ever would.

She was timeless… She went back to college in like her 50′s (I believe it was), to become a paralegal… In her 40′s (Once again, I believe it was) she got her real estate license… In fact, she’s the one that found the house for my mom and dad, that I ended up spending my whole childhood in (except 9th grade, which I spent at my dad’s when he remarried in Arizona)… And at some point she actually owned a small apartment building… All of this after losing her one and only husband, my mom’s dad, also in her 40′s.

She never remarried, or went out with another man… No, instead she spent time working, and with her family.

Primarily her two sons, and sister… And her sister’s kids, who she had 8 of.

One of the most Brilliant, Interesting, Life Filled People I have ever come across.

For me, she set the bar on how well a life could be lived… And how long. She was 92 when she passed.

I will miss my Grandma… I’ve already missed her ever since I was a kid, when I really got to see more of her.

I can not begin to tell you how many lives she’s touched, and impacted… I’m not sure if there’s ever been anyone in this life that I have more admired… I really hope she’s chillen up their with her son Patrick right now… She told me once that she used to wake up in the middle of the night and listen to him play electric guitar in the wee hours… And that, that’s when his playing sounded the best. He was a Brilliant Guitarist… The best Blues Guitarist I’ve ever known. In fact, back when I had a band, it was Grandma that told me “I wish Patrick had recorded those late night playing sessions.” She went on to suggest to me that I recorded my sessions, which is what I did… I took a Video Camera to at least a couple of my Rehearsals, and they came out great… Never would have thought of it if she hadn’t suggested it.

Then there was the time that this van full of dudes blocked the road, and were going to beat up my dad, who was driving behind them… I guess they must have gotten into it on the road before hand. Anyway, my Grandma came along, pulled off the road too, and told the guys in the van to get lost, Lol

There’s so many stories with her, I could go on and on.

In fact some of my most cherished memories were those of her at her sister’s house, and the two of them drinking coffee, and laughing hysterically in the high pitched voices that filled the home…

So many memories… She was simply great. My mom will miss her too. And her son… And so many others… Countless… Endless.

Ah, I mustn’t forget to mention how whenever she saw me when I was older, she’d mention how much I had grown since she last saw me… If I had grown as much as she indicated, I would be well over 15 feet tall, Lol It always used to make me laugh.

Alright, well… I won’t say goodbye to you Grandma… I’m not all that good at goodbyes… But I will say, I hope you are flying high above me… I know I will always feel you, and think of you… So many stories… So much love… Such an Amazing Human Being.

We Love You Grandma

A Conversation With Trauma (Part 2)

A Conversation With Trauma

(Part Two)*

*Make sure to Read Part One First

And so 2002 me had made a surprise appearance, and was going to testify on my behalf.

“Let us begin,” speaks Justice me.

“What would you say was your emotional state when you arrived in Eugene, Oregon?” inquires Perspective me.

“Well, it was a mix of things… Mostly I was excited, having just gotten married a couple of months prior to arriving… Also, we had a little place waiting for us, something our brother had lined up… But, we were tight on funds, as 9/11 had hit a few months prior to us arriving, which caused some difficulties getting some temp jobs right before we came… And as it turned out, it also caused us issues getting new jobs in Eugene,” explains 2002 me.

“Hadn’t you been warned by your wife’s father that Eugene had a terrible economy as well?” adds Cautious me.

“Yes… Yes we had… But, we needed to get out of the state, partially to break my wife away from her relationship with her mom, which had become a bit too close… And that coupled with the fact that my brother wanted me to come so we could work on films, it just felt like a good thing… Not to mention, my wife was going to be trying to get a job in her field, which could have taken us as far as New York, should she land a position… So we didn’t plan on staying in Eugene all that long… We just figured it would break us away from California, and her mom… And also give me an opportunity to work on some Film Projects with my bro,” 2002 me explains.

“I see,” responds Cautious me, as he writes down some notes.

“And quickly the money issues began?” asks Justice me.

“Yes… We had some wedding money, but that got used up very quickly… We then tried to find jobs for several months, me through temp agencies, and my wife from the paper… But what we didn’t realize was 9/11 had caused a lot of companies to put a freeze on ‘special project’ jobs, which is what they needed temp employees for… Which made it very hard for us to find employment,” 2002 explains.

“And then you filed for unemployment?” inquires perspective me.

“Yes… It wasn’t an easy thing for either of us to do, as neither of us had ever done so… But as it ends up, when you change states, it’s like losing a job, and so we were both able to file unemployment from California, even though we had moved to Eugene, Oregon. But that wasn’t really enough money… And so we also ended up having to get the equivalent of food stamps from the State of Oregon, something else we had never done.” 2002 further explains.

“And in addition to all of this, your brother didn’t have time to work on Films with you?” inquires Perspective me.

“No… As it turns out, even though he had pushed for my wife and I to move there so we could work on Short Films to submit to Film Festivals, he in fact was having major marital issues, and basically had no time to work on Films,” 2002 me replies.

“I see… And when did you ask your father for money, so that you could get back on your medicines?” asks Justice me.

“Within the first month or two, but he got very angry with me, as at the time he was having money issues himself, and when I hung up with him, I wrote him a 50 page letter… Which I never sent… I just didn’t feel like hitting him with all of the things he had done that made our relationship over the years almost impossible… I just, let it go,” explains 2002 me.

“And why didn’t you apply for State Medical Assistance in Oregon?” asks Cautious me.

“Well… By that point, I was so down from the way my dad spoke to me, and the fact that we couldn’t get jobs and were on food stamps… And collecting unemployment… And the whole reason we moved there was to make Films, which my brother didn’t have time to do… I just couldn’t cope with the idea of leaning on Oregon to take care of my medical health as well… I’d been independent all my life, worked since I was 15, supported myself 15 years… I think I just started to shut down emotionally… And all of this landing on top of a brand new marriage… Frankly, it just sucked, Lol and I was super depressed,” continues 2002 me.

“What happened next?” asks Perspective me.

“Well, out of frustration I Wrote a 5 Minute Short Film, and asked my bro if he had an hour he could spare… He did, and I went with my wife over to his house, and basically Filmed a 5 minute Film in around an hour… I then spent the night Editing the Film, for something like 8-12 hours, submitted it into a Film Festival in New York, and got it in… Also during that period, when my Wife was out of town trying to land a position in her field, I Wrote an 80 Page Feature Film Screenplay… And I also Wrote a Play,” 2002 explains.

“So in the midst of all these trial and tribulations, you stayed on course with pursuing your dream to be a Film Maker…” states Justice me.

“Yeah, I mean, you have to realize, not only was I Inspired, and Driven, but My Wife was 100% supportive, and was just great to be with, relationship wise that is,” 2002 explains.

“Then what happened?” asked Perspective me.

“Well, after being in Eugene Oregon three or four months, my brother decided to move out of state, as he found an employment opportunity that blew away his late shift, low paying job. I was happy for him, but also upset, as he had talked my wife and I to move to Eugene, and then was leaving Eugene… And on top of that, he never really had time to work on Film, and my wife and I were basically in financial ruin from the whole venture,” explains 2002.

“Hmm… Devastating,” interjects Cautious me. Justice me and Perspective me take note of Cautious me’s reaction.

“So my bro left town, and my wife felt too embarrassed to move back to California… So we stayed for a few more months… I even worked at a McDonalds for like five weeks just to get us some cash when we finally decided to leave the State,” concludes 2002 me.

“And then you get back to California, a few months later your wife leaves the relationship, and you get a five to six week flu that puts you in the hospital, and you finally get back on your meds?” asks Justice me.

“That’s right… I was in the hospital for 10 days… And the Doctors lectured me for getting off my meds, but, I just didn’t have the money, and couldn’t deal with getting on ‘State Medical Care’ in Oregon,” 2002 me finishes.

TO BE CONTINUED

A Conversation With Trauma (Part One)

A Conversation With Trauma

(Part One)

A Courtroom in my Mind…

Somewhere I have not been since early 2002, when I Charged Myself with ‘Being Depressed, When I Had No Right To Be’

Of course, in the end, I was Found Innocent by myself.

That part of me was a Kindly Fellow as it turned out… Poignant… But wise.

But I would not be so fortunate today… No.

In fact, rather than one Judge, and a hand full of Convincing Selves, with the Feel of the Judges in the 1978 Superman Movie…

I would instead have Three of Me behind the Desk of Justice.

And many, many Self Witnesses.

The First behind the Desk is ‘Perspective’ me… Trying to keep things Balanced I suspect.

The Second is ‘Cautious’ me… Just in case.

And the last is ‘Justice’ Me. Appropriate I think.

I take a seat facing the Desk of Justice, wearing a backwards, White, New York Met’s Baseball Hat… My Brother knows I’m a Yankees Fan, but he thought it looked cool, and so sent it to me.

My orange Dark Horse Comic’s Adidas Tennis Shoes… A Collectors Item, which happen to be the most comfortable shoes I’ve ever owned. So I wear them, instead of letting them sit in a box.

Blue Jeans, because I Love Blue Jeans… And a white tshirt, underneath a dark blue Thermal Shirt.

First to the stand are both 1995, and 1996 me… Wow, haven’t seen them in a while.

They both sit, and look a bit anxious. Especially 1995 me.

“Which of you was first told about the accused medical condition?” asks Justice.

“Well… That’s it your Honor… It might have been me, or it might have been 1995,” speaks 1996 me.

“Very well… How did the accused deal with the news?” further asks Justice.

“Well… That part I remember… It was as if the emotional part of himself floated away into the stars… While the physical part of him had to stay and listen… Also, his girlfriend started crying profusely… I think it was a bit much for her… But mostly just scared her.”

“And what was the outcome of this condition?” inquired Perspective me.

“Well, actually, it ended up being ok. The first method they tried, had no result… But the second had outlandish success, making even the normally ‘monotone’ Doctor’s Voice Raise in celebration… So to speak.” explains 1996.

“Thank you 1996, and 1995, you may return to your seats,” speaks Justice… Meanwhile ‘Cautious’ me seems to be taking several notes.

Suddenly to my surprise, 1998 me comes in to the courtyard, followed by four different girls that I liked during that year… Man that was a good year… Not because of the girls, that was a bit confusing… No… But 1998 was when I was making good money at that Orthopedic Brace Company, and had just gotten out of a very difficult long relationship… I ended up Buying a Brand New Purple Mexican Strat Fender Guitar, and starting a Band… I bought My Black Jeep… I bought a Computer… Not that I’m a material guy, but it was a good year, and I had been supporting two people for so long, suddenly I actually had some extra money.

I wonder why 1998 me is here?

“1998, could you step up here,” requested Justice me.

“Sure,” 1998 replied, and stepped up and sat before the Desk of Justice.

“1998, we’d like to hear your opinion of the accused during 1999, 2000, 2001 and 2002,” speaks perspective me.

“Uh… Ok… 1999 got his heart smashed pretty good… And that, coupled with the fact that he was fried of his job, caused him to leave his employment… Where the heart breaker also worked.” explains 1998 me.

“Would you say the heartache was the main reason for leaving?” inquires perspective me.

“Uh… Not exactly… He was completely fried on that job before they started to date, then they dated and he was reinvigorated, then when they parted, he decided enough was enough… But I’d say the main reason was he felt it was finally time to pursue his Dream of Film Making,” concludes 1998 me.

“I see,” responds perspective me as he scribbles down several notes.

“And 2000?” questions Justice me.

“Ah, now 2000 he had a good go of it… He moved near his brother, and bought a Video Camera… From there he spent the next 9 months working on Experimental Film Projects… He was a pretty satisfied guy at this point… He didn’t have much money, but he was pursuing his Dream, so everyday felt like a good day,” replies 1998 me.

“He also met the girl he would end up marrying in 2001 that year… Which was a great day… Even though they only stayed married a year,” 1998 concludes.

“2001 he continued working on experimental Film Projects with his girlfriend (who he’d marry in October 2001), but towards the end of 2001, he was so broke, that he had to let go of his Medical Insurance… And thus stopped taking the medicine that had helped his 1995-96 condition,” he explains.

“I see…” responds Cautious Me. “And yet he kept the Jeep with the High Payment?”

“Yeah… Well… It was a Lease… And frankly, he had no other way of getting another car,” replies 1998 me.

“I see…” responds Cautious me, as he scribbles down some notes.

“And 2002?” asks Justice me, but just as he does, 2002 me steps into the chambers.

“I’d like to speak for myself, if that’s alright,” speaks 2002 me.

A palpable murmur fills the courtroom, but it is allowed.

1998 me returns to his seat, and gives 2002 me a slap on the shoulder, “Don’t let em corner you man… You had a rough go of it.”

2002 me nods in response, then makes his way before the Desk of Justice.

“Let me have it… I’m ready for yah!” speaks 2002 me.

DarkJade-

PICTURE CREDIT – Sad Boy

TO BE CONTINUED…

Tonight – A Love Song For A Love

Tonight

(A Love Song For A Love)

In 1998 I Wrote a Love Song for my Best Friend, for whom I had fallen in Love… As she had with me

It was called “Tonight”

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Tonight

by James Mahoney

(1998)

Dreams of her

Fill me Tonight

Green Eyes Hope

And All That’s Right

Shooting Star

She’s Seen at Night

Soft Warm Kim

Cool Blue Moonlight

How I Long for her Embrace

Soft as Silk

Her Beautiful Face

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It was a Short Song, I believe the Lyrics were sung twice

I had Written the song on My Blue Acoustic Alvarez Guitar… Which I still own

The Love Affair was also short… 3, maybe 4 months

But we had both just come out of very not good/difficult relationships, and we just kind of landed in each others arms

I do not Regret it… My Time with her was Beautiful, and Powerful

And our Friendship the two years before, helped me through a very difficult time

HAPPY VALENTINE’S DAY TO ONE AND ALL!!

DarkJade-

PICTURE CREDITS – The Best Color, Time & Love

More Texted Photos From My Bro

More Texted Photos From My Bro

Back when I was pursuing Film Making, in 2000-2003, My Brother was who I wanted to be my Cinematographer…

His thing was Acting, and Photography, and mine was Writing, Directing and Producing

These days my Brother on occasion shoots me a Picture, I think taken by his phone, but I’m not quite sure, Lol

And sends it to me via Text

My Brother’s never been into the Technology thing, but you can still get a gist of the Shots he’s taken…

And in my Opinion his Artistic Eye.

Enjoy

Maybe it’s me, but I just think these Photos are Amazing. Maybe partly because my Favorite Color is Blue, but it’s more than that. I just Love my Brother’s Eye.

My brother’s main focus for the last 17 years, has been his marriage, and his kids… Which I feel is admirable, and has made him an Incredible Father. But I’ve always wondered what his Photography would be like, if he ever actually got some Equipment, and set out in pursuit of it as a Career… Or even as a True Hobby. But, none the less, even his Phone Shots I really Enjoy.

The Wine Country seen through the Artist’s Eye I believe.

Thanks for Checken out his Pictures

Back to Work (Editing, Lol)

DarkJade-

Editing, Basketball, And Steak

Editing, Basketball, And Steak

All is well at the DarkJade abode…

My kitty, Baron, is sleeping behind me, as I attempt to finish up Editing this Draft of my “Chess With Agatha” manuscript.

 

 

Though it is Sunday, and so I doubt I’ll actually finish it.

As Sunday is the day that I try to make myself take some time to just relax.

Most of my week is spent either Writing, or Editing these days… And though it is a Work of Passion, it still work.

And it is good to just shutdown to a degree.

And so, I shall do a bit more Editing here, and then toss a Steak onto the Stove, and attempt to make an Excellent Lunch, Lol

And then My Basketball Team, The Lakers, will be playing the Best Teams (Or one of em anyway) in Basketball, we shall see how they hold up.

So for me, it’s Editing, Basketball, And Steak…

I Hope all of you have a Lovely Sunday

DarkJade-

My Fantasy Circle Of Five

My Fantasy Circle Of Five

First I’d like to thank Paige Addams for Tagging me with this Challenge.

The Challenge;

Name 5 Fantasy Characters that you’d like to spend some Time with.

First of all, this could be Dangerous, as some of My Favorite Characters are… Well… Dangerous.

The Rules:

1) List five fantasy characters you’d like to spend time with, and give a little info on why you chose them.

2) Pass it on!

Who I’m passing it on to:

There doesn’t appear to be a set number, so I shall choose just a few.

Quill Wielder

Terrii Wachala

Anna

Shannon

My five fantasy characters I’d like to hang out with:

Like I mentioned above, some of my Characters are, well, dangerous… And thus, I may, or may not survive My Visit with them, Lol

Might as well start out with a Bang

1) Darth Vader;

Ok, so Darth is basically one of the Most Evil Characters you could ever hope to spend any time with…

And, chances are, you may get a Quick Promotion to be the Captain of the Ship, followed by a Quick Demotion, and/or Death.

That said, Darth Vader is My All Time Favorite Villain, and Thus, I feel as a Writer, I might benefit from being exposed to his… Err… Evilness, Lol

Perhaps I’d simply guise myself as a Storm Trooper or something, and Follow him around… But I don’t really see that ending well.

Truth be known, I’d probably prefer to be watching him from afar, as opposed to sharing a Tea Time with him. But being he has the Force, he’d know I was following him… And… Yeah. Not a Practical Character to Share time with, but I choose him none the less, Lol

 

Probably My Favorite All Time Scene In Any Of The Films

 

 

2)  Conan The Barbarian;

Ok, maybe it seems Cheesy, but I just think the Conan The Barbarian Character is just Bad A$$! Not just Arnold, though I feel he did an Awesome Job with this Character… I just Love the Part where he and the Hunter Character are Running across wide open spaces, and at night they eat large pieces of meat, and talk about their Gods…

I just think he is a Bad A$$ Character… How he’s always Focused on his Quest, and has lost his True Love, and thus generally doesn’t fall for other woman.

What can I say, this Guy makes me want to run across deserts with a bow on my back, and a sword at my side, Lol

 

The Scenes I’m Talking About Are In This Clip

 

 

3) Roy Batty;

Once again, a Character that would probably kill me before we got halfway through lunch, Lol

But, none the less, Roy Batty from “Blade Runner” is a Fascinating, Brilliant Character. And though some of the things he does in the Film are Scary, and Treacherous… In the end, he’s just another Scared to Death Soul, trying to Extend his Life beyond his young age.

 

My Favorite Scene From Blade Runner

 

 

4) Eventine Elessedil;

Though I’ve never been much of a Reader, I picked up a book called “The Sword Of Shannara” when I was a Teenager, and I just couldn’t put it down.

But the Character that stood out most to me wasn’t in the book much, but the way that he was described was so Vivid, it has forever stuck with me. Most specifically, his Green Eyes.

Wikipedia’s Discription

Eventine Elessedil, the King of the Elves. He was captured by forces of the Warlock Lord, thus paralyzing the Elves and preventing them from aiding Callahorn (they did not want to get their hostage king killed). However, he was rescued “solo”^[4] by Flick, finally allowing the Elves to mobilize in Callahorn’s defense.

I’d like to spend 20 to 30 years with this guy, just watching him rule his Kingdom. Can’t explain it, if you get a chance Check out “The Sword Of Shannara” Book… There are many, but I’m talking about the Very First one, Written by Terry Brooks, who gave up a Career in Law to be a Full Time Writer. Which is Inspiring to me… Though I gave up a Career in Orthopedic Sales to be a Film Maker, Lol… Which isn’t nearly as Cool, Lol

 

5) Han Solo;

Ok, so choosing the last one was hard… Though it’s pretty much impossible not to make it Han Solo, as I basically wanted to be him when I was a kid, Lol

Tons of Action Figures of him too…

The Guy is just Awesome… I could definitely deal with spending most of my life in the Millennium Falcon, making my way around the Universe.

I admit ‘Indian Jones’, and even the Original ‘TRON’ Character came to mind… As they were very important Characters to me when I was young.

But I gotta give it to Han Solo… The Ultimate Sci-Fi, Handsome Rogue

 

Not A Lot of Good Scenes On YouTube, But This Is A Good One

 

Letting It Go

Letting It Go

It’s interesting… Being someone whose wanted to be a Film Maker the majority of his life, and also someone that Loves Music (Not that most people don’t)

Over the years I’ve had numerous Ideas if not for Complete Films, and or Music Videos… Than for just Scenes from a Movie, that has yet to be made. If that makes sense, Lol

But in the last 17 Months, I have for the first time been full blown pursuing Writing Books for a Living, and yet Movie, and Music Video Concepts still come to me.

Like today when Rihanna’s ‘Diamonds’ song came on My Pandora Radio Station… And suddenly, I had an idea for a Video for the Song.

Now don’t get me wrong, not only does this song already have a Video, which was Posted November 8th… But that Video already has over 150,000,000 Hits… And I have to say, earlier today it was 149-somethen million, and checking now, it’s almost gone up a million today alone… So, yeah, her Video’s doing just fine.

But that’s not it… I came up with a Meaningful Concept, that I Would Love to Film, and Get done.

But as the Title of this Post indicates, I Need to just “Let It Go”.

Ok, so that sounds silly, as I’m sure lots of people have ideas about lots of things, that they’re just not able to pull off…

And yet it still Fascinates me that even with that being the case, I actually get to experience being Passionate About said idea for a bit either way.

I really do feel that My Concept would be Awesome. Meaningful… Beautiful really.

And Though Rihanna is Beautiful, and has an Extremely Powerful Presence, she wouldn’t actually be in the Video that I conceived.

I just thought I’d Write a Post about this, because maybe some of you Fellow Artists know what I mean… Having an Idea/Concept come to you, that you feel absolutely Passionate about, even though the likelihood of you actually doing anything with it, isn’t all that good.

Passion is Amazing to me… Imagination is one of the Greatest Experiences of My Life, and I’m glad that mine never went anywhere upon entering the ‘Adult’ World, Lol

So though I’m not currently Pursuing Film, I Do Hope that My Writing Brings Forth some Vivid Images for My Readers… That’s the Hope anyway.

DarkJade, Signing Off

Have A Great Weekend

*I Leave you with the Actual Rihanna – Diamonds Video, which is Absolutely Nothing like the Concept I have, Lol