Sometimes I Wake Up Screaming…
Worried that My Heart is going to Stop
But it Doesn’t…
And I’m Ok
And So I sit alone in the Dark
The Sound of My Own Breath…
Keeps me Company
Trauma…
Trauma has done this
It Echoes Through Me Like A Shadow…
From a Former Life…
One I Do Not Miss
And Yet… It’s Still With Me
Oh Unkind Memory…
Wouldst Thou Let Me Sleep
DarkJade-
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Posted in Dark Xperience, Dreams, Entertainment, Poem, Poetry, Scribblings with tags Shadow, Trauma on April 21, 2012 by darkjade68Captain Fire 197 – Trauma at Cliqo 1
Posted in Blog Series, Captain Fire 197, Fiction, Science Fiction, Story, Writing with tags Cliqo 1, The Turen's, Trauma on November 8, 2011 by darkjade68As we neared the Zoton Sytem, and Cliqo 1, I began to feel more and more sick… Knowing that I was that close to the Species that had single handedly wiped out my Home Planet of Ona… Was… Well… Unnerving.
As I sat there feeling sorry for myself, that’s when Tamaron came in.
“Hello Nisho…” he spoke with his wide innocent brown eyes.
I was sweating, but joined him on the couch anyway.
“Hello Tamaron…”
“How are you?” he asked. And then it hit me, I wonder if Jenna had asked him to watch over me, it would be just like her to try and protect me.
“I’m okay…” I responded most unconvincingly. “Well, if you need anything, just let me know…” he replied.
Tamaron was a very Special Boy… Or… Young man I guess. Before, I was the Innocent Bright Eyed one on the ship, but I was slowly suspecting that he was now filling that role.
Which leaves me where? At least that was something.
“I’m just feeling a bit under the weather… ” with this I stood, and suddenly colapsed to my knees. “Umff”.
“Are you alright Nisho!?!” Tamaron was right there on the floor with me, for some reason I had seemed to lose most of my strength, and the sweating was getting worse.
Tamaron took me to Jenna, where she looked me over.
“All of your results turned out good, I suspect that you are merely under a great deal of Duress… And why wouldn’t you be, being this close to… Well… You know”.
“I’m okay, I can go back to my room” I tried to stand, then colapsed again. Jenna quickly helped me back to the examining table.
“Woe now… Take it slow… You’re still weak”.
That’s when Jono came in.
“How’s our patient?” he inquired.
“I’m okay” I quickly responded.
“She’s weak, but her tests all came out good… She’s in good health” interjected Jenna.
“Be that as it may, I’m afraid we’re not going to be able to take you with us to Cliqo 1’s Moon…”.
“WHAT! NO!” I suddenly uncontrollably started to yell, stood, and fell to the floor once more. This time it was Jono that picked me up, meanwhile Tamaron sat quietly and watched.
“Hey now, it’s alright… It’s for the best… You’ve obviously got something going on, and we need our Team to be 100% down there…” Jono put his hand on my shoulder once more. “You just get better…” with this he left.
My hair once again started to turn black, as I broke into a quiet sob.
How pathetic…
Jenna seeing I was upset, approached Tamaron.
“Lets give her some space…” and the two of them left.
Maybe there is something wrong with me… In the head… What a loser, I’ve totally failed our Team.
No matter what Jono said, I had to figure out a way to get on that shuttle…
TO BE CONTINUED…
DarkJade-
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Part One – Captain Fire 197
Part Two – Captain Fire 197 – Beginnings
Part Three – Captain Fire 197 – Meet The Crew
Part Four – Captain Fire 197 – The Mission
Part Five – Captain Fire 197 – Kylod 7
Part Six – Captain Fire 197 – Growing Pains
Part Seven – Captain Fire 197 – Sahnon Moon
Part Eight – Captain Fire 197 – Eltoy Kill
Part Nine – Captain Fire 197 – Operation Detonation
Part X – Captain Fire 197 – New to the Crew
Part XI – Captain Fire 197 – Busted
Part XII – Captain Fire 197 – Alone on Kalnos 9
Part XIII – Captain Fire 197 – Reflections
Part XIV – Captain Fire 197 – The Turens
Part XVI – Captain Fire 197 – Words Can’t Say
Part XVII – Captain Fire 197 – Escape
Part XVIII – Captain Fire 197 – Finding Nisho